"A Kiss With A Fist Is Better Than None"

What is it with people and violent, excessively depressing and obscure love?
What is it with those kind of lyrics and books that can be so appealing?
It's like, people want and take pleasure in feeling the pain.
Though, i gotta admit the songs these people make or bands that make songs for these
movies/ situations/ books
actually sound really good.
Huh.

For example;

Possibility- Lykke Li
Kiss With A Fist - Florence + The Machine
Time - Cute Is What We Aim For
Chew Me Up and Spit Me Out - Cobra Starship
Through The Trees - Low Shoulder
I Don't Love You- My Chemical Romance
The Navy Song (In the Fall) - Billy Talent
Surrender (Work In Progress) - Billy Talent
... Slow Dance On the Inside - Taking Back Sunday

etc.

ISecondThatQuote!

PFFFFFFFFT. tsk.

Oh gawsh.

Okaaayy.

Here I am.

Blogging. ;/

My brain, feeling empty of MY thoughts.

But filled with those scenes from the novel I just finished. (it's actually quite disturbing)

And Jennifer's Body's soundtrack playing as background music in my ears.
And, yesterday's dance routines we'd spent 6 hours on just re-playing and re-motioning in my head over and over again.
I feel so numb and yet so not tired.
despite sleeping at three and waking up early.
But unlike the other post i posted i think last week,
I don't feel useless.
I just feel numb.
I don't feel.

Though, I do feel better after that rant;D

But hey, just to give myself a little bit more credit,

At least we finished most of the choreography:D

and APYAC is coming!

woo hoo.

Oh yeah, be sure to check out the gt youth camp blog.
And of course, to sign yourself up! :DD
gtyouthcamp09.blogspot.com

BloodIsThisWeeksWord!

Hello.

Wow.
Guess what?

Guess why I haven't updated for quite some time?

Heh.

Because I had to fall wonderfully ill.

Hah-haha. Joy.

So yes, my schedule did change.

Mmm,

It changed into spending the days and nights in bed.

Arrgh!

But no. I'm not going to talk about what i did when i was sick.

I am going to talk about after.

Hahahahahh! My mum made go to the hospital cause she said, "Your skin doesn't look good. You may have dengue". So, they brillianty, most wonderfully took a blood test!

*screams!!!

I must warn you I am VERY, against needles. I hadn't taken any blood out before this test. Well, tuesday's test went.. well enough. But I had to come back Wednesday for another one! Cause my platelet(s) were kinda low:/ Oooh, though my red blood cells are higher than the average female:DD And btw, I took out one whole bottle on Tuesday.

Wednesday (today) was a disaster! I was more prepared than the day before but i tell you. *goes limp. The doctor poked me twice! she couldn't suck the blood out! Tears were actually rolling down my cheeks. D: Another bottle came out and my hands sorta felt cold... urgh. I even had to hold my plaster down cause it was bleeding too much:/ and they stuck the plaster in the wrong spot. Pfft.

Another bloody affair would be... the release of

New Moon

tomorrow! Thank goodness my blood test results were good today so.. I'll be watching that -*points up - in the cinemas with Mandy tomorrow:DDD

MumbleMumbleBlabberBlabber...

5 hours till something sharp goes Snipp Snipp,
And my hair is gone:D :/ D:

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Anywho, I feel like I'm wasting my holiday away.
It's the same routine every OTHER day.
*I wake up.
*I find a message from Kristin.
*I talk to God. I wish Him goodmorning.I eat breakfast.
*I turn on the computer.
*I think about what to do for the Christmas dance routine I have to come up with.
*I think about what to give people for Christmas.
*I have lunch.
*I talk to God.
*I blog.
*I watch a movie.
*I try to think of something very useful to do.
*I read a few chapter's of something knowledgable
(at the moment it's a novel about philosophy, Sophie's world)
*I watch the Simpsons and My Name Is Earl.
*I have dinner and i do something...
*I read my bible.
*I talk to God.
*I go to bed satisfied, but not asleep.
*I lie awake in bed for what feels like forever.
*I ask Matt what he's doing and usually find him sleeping, studying or ... Idk. It varies.
*I go back to bed and look at my glow in the dark stars.
*I disturb God again:D
*Then at some point I fall asleep.

Pfft. that has been my day more or less for the past- heh- four days and i feel like I've wasted my entire holiday away! Hahahahah. And the holidays haven't exactly officially started.
Hm, I bet you're thinking I'm a real sad nut with nothing better to do.
Well, guess what.
I. Am. Going... To. Be. Busy. And fulllll of things to do soon enough.
MMhmmm.
But I actually enjoy what I'm doing now.
For once in a VERRRRY long time,
I can sit back and do whatever crap I want to.
And it feels good.
No ballet exmas, no school exams.
No deadlines and commitments (well, actually i do have a ton of them now that i've thought about it... but nothing super major that needs to be done, Right NOW This very SECOND)

Wow.

Life is pretty good with an easy do nothing day,
Yeah. It is.




















But I'D DITCH IT eventually.
Hm, I AM GOING to do something very exciting/ or nerve-wrecking/ or attend to something or someone that is begging to be attended to.

MmHMMM.

I can't wait:D
Heh. Right.



Ta?

Come'onMiss, Let'sChopEm'Off...

Whew! Okay, I can do this.

I, Michelle Beth Chong Weng Yan,

am going to chop my hair off.
Yes, yes I am.

Yes, I can.

Yes I will.

Yes, I will be trying something new.

Remember,

New perspective,

New Look,

New Year (soon enough)

Ooh! speaking of new,

Taking Back Sunday's latest album,

NEW AGAIN

Is a must hear! MMHmmm.

This album will get you Head-Banging,

and Finger- Drumming!

:D

I certainly think it's pure genius.

UHHuh.

Yesterday,

"MR Orange Juice, I'm gonna go drink up some NEW PERSPECTIVE."

Tonight,

"Dear MR Creepy Philoshopy Mystery, Where are we going?"

Hmm, sine I've got a request for something INSPIRATIONAL, here take this..?

UnderMyUmbrellaEllaEllaEhEh....

Hm, is it really time?

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WorstWeek?

Have you watched that show on starworld,

WORST WEEK?

well, no. my week has not exactly been the worst.
i don't even know why i named this post worst week.
Gawsh.
Anyway,
i realized i haven't writen anything about my ballet exam!
and, i really don't want to...
but i do want to give credits to the person and artist who gave me strength to survive this horror week of exams.
Thank you Kristie Chew for the totally unexpected inspirations:

"Arise, shine; for your light has come!
And the glory of the Lord is risen upon you"

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"Fear not, for I am with you;

Do not be dismayed,

For I am your God.
I will strengthen you.

Yes, I will help you,

I will uphold you with my righteous right hand"

-Isaiah 41:10

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You have no idea how much hope that can bring to a person on possibly the most stressful week of the year.
Thank you.
And to be honest, i had a check list the night before my ballet exam.
Your messages double-checked and got a thumbs up for my
inspirational message section.
Thank you!!

And thank you to Saving Jane too for your hidden track on your album.
I've heard your album six times and I've NEVER heard this track before till this seventh time, just before my exam i hear this.
Wow, it's just so direct:)

You Say (Hidden track) - Saving Jane

I've been calling and calling for you

But you answer and I shut my mouth

I've been searching and and searching for you,

but myself I don't want to be found.

You say I am

You say let go

You say believe

But it's not that easy for me

You say wait

You say right now

Don't you see your already one foot at the ground

You say come home

You say I'm here

You say there's some things you just can't control.

You say let me

You say believe

Why do you search for the answers you already know?

You say

I am the way

And the light and the truth

Don't be mislead by the flight of your youth.

Have faith in the things you can't see to believe.

What if you had faith in me?

You say rest here

This is your home.

Don't you see that you knew I was here all along?

You say ...

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Thank you God for holding me through this week.
Thank you for helping me not break a leg when i fell down the stairs today...
TWICE.
Thank you for holding in the water works today.
Thank you for sending me someone to talk to.
Thank you for helping me survive my ballet exam, feeling confident.
Thank you for helping me stay awake almost all night throughout this week so I could study..
and still be able to function and remember everything i needed to the next day.


Thank you, I love you:D

It's overrrrrrrrrrr!!!.. for now.

Yeah, the string of exams are over and done with! weee.
Somehow though, all i can really think about is history facts running my mind...
and William Carey's story.. (his story somehow helped me answer four questions in today's paper! :O)
and well,
since it's playing on my comp now and is a brilliant song;
The Happy Ending Is you- Clint Mansell

whew.
Just went out with "the girls"
ICE CREAM CELEBRATION for the end of exams this year!
yeah...
though, I'm feeling super kiasu for some unexplainable reason.
CaN'T wait to study for next year.
gosh. that's just sucking pants.
anyway, i NEED to get my hands on a book that teaches me Greek!
and i will. very soon.
or at least try to learn from the ever amazing internet.

oh well,
goodnight. or as they say in greek,
"kalinihta" :D

ICanFeelItGettingIntoMyHead

yet another song stuck in my head!
(I've hit play over and over again for this song on youtube..in the past hour)
"When You Believe" from the Prince Of Egypt soundtrack.





I actually quite like that movie.
It's nice seeing a biblical story in motion picture.
That movie speaks, literally. :D
Freedom.
He'll, find us a way to get there.
He hears when He's called.
Believe.
Haaih.
Love it.
Love the way the Hope factor is spread all over each scene of the movie..
and song without a doubt.
:D Hope, yeah. Hope.
Love the song.
Now i remember where that song comes from.
You know, when you know a song but don't remember from where?
Yeah, that's me:/

HM, why can't notes stick to my brain the way lyrics do? pfft.







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Speaking of hope...

THE ballet exam is tomorrow! :D :O :D
So excited, anxious, nervous, ready, yet unprepared, hyper, happy... confused?
whooh.
Let's get it on.

Hoping (praying!!!!) for a wonderful exam.
:D